River and Ocean River the Disciple Master oh Mine, Who is dearer to me as my breath Let this river named Sridhar merge with Ocean named Self Tired am I swimming across, Pull me up towards you, I am ready. Ocean…
The verses and the commentaries below are my own reflections and understanding of the bible. Since I choose to make use of religious texts as an aid to communicate my own experience and understanding, it is just as well that I clarify my own relationship to the word: God. I was insatiably interested in the existential questions in young age. I examined Christianity into which I was born. I wanted to be a good Christian who believed in Christianity central tenet: belief in Jesus Christ but I was not able to confess such a faith because I doubted. My religious longing was not satisfied and it took many years before it resurfaced. Then I understood my childhood doubt and its legitimacy and started seriously to search inwardly to satisfy the yearning of the soul.
Now after many years I found that the need of harmony is a part of the consciousness. Everyone recognises this when experiencing difficulties, conflict and restlessness – as true Life takes place inwardly. When one is quiet inside one handles better what happens in a good way.
Verse 28: Do not be afraid of those who kill the body but cannot kill the soul. Rather be afraid of the One who can destroy both soul and body in hell.
Inner struggles, guilt and self-pity are destroying us. Living in such a state is hell.
Verse 37: Anyone who loves his father or mother more than me is not worthy of me; anyone who loves his son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me.
This means one has to love the Truth more than anything. Worldly attachments often bring possessiveness. “The fear” wants to control and possess. This keeps us away from the Truth.
Verse 38: And anyone who does not take his cross and follow me is not worthy of me.
The cross symbolizes trinity, the three powers, and the beyond. Three powers (manifest, preserves and destroy) have their own role and importance, yet in meditation one realise that they are one. If one lives in duality inside, then God seems absent from our life.
Verse 28: “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.“Join me in Truth and experience who you are.”
Only Truth (God) can save the seeker from the intolerable pain. The one who surrenders himself – where the surrender is not a theoretical concept, it means the one who realizes Unity with God, actually “experiences it”. After settled in Silence, the surrender happens in a natural way without any words.
Verse 43: “When an evil spirit comes out a man, it goes through arid places seeking rest and does not find it.
An “evil spirit” means the experience of duality inside. Without an inner harmony, challenges of life make one restless and anxious. One is looking outward for a resting place, a way to freedom. To escape the anxiety one occupies oneself with many activities or seeks for various entertainments but soon one returns back with more disappointment and restlessness. The resting place is inside, in Silence, the only pillar to hold on.
Verse 44: Then it says, “I will return to the house I left.” When it arrives, it finds the house unoccupied, swept clean and put in order.
The starting point is also the ending point. This is a long journey of no distance. What we search is always there right behind the forgetfulness. One has to realize this as own experience not through words only.